Channels like Charlieissocoollike and mememolly and uh, most channels around the place I am on the most subbed list all have such huge video views for their recent videos. Meanwhile I feel like my videos just struggle to get views. Comparitive to them anyways.
Molly is happy to make the sort of videos that do get lots of views, and she sounds posher than me, and edits and makes more effort in general with her videos, and charlie is clearly very into the whole e-fame thing, does charity things and gatherings and whatnot. And that's fine. I know I have lost (for now) my love for youtube and editing. It's only pride that makes me want to win win win.
Lately I have seen a few things which have inspired me a lot in terms of making videos. One is Jackdanyells video 'Comfort Zone', which is a little strange, but he makes a good point, about being uncreative when inside your own comfort zone, which is absolutely true. Another is the awesome AndyMcGaffigan channel. Another is a tiny horoscope I read yesterday which made me laugh out loud (I may scan it later).
I really feel like I have a huge scope to do something with youtube. Not something 'great' per se, but something great for me, something fun and that I can look back on as some sort of amazing feat. I LOVE Zefrank, and despite my dislike for their derivative-seeming approach, I admire the drive that VlogBrothers have/had. The sense of bringing a collective together to create something more than they can indivicually is very inspiring, and I think that is where i want to go with youtube next, in some way.
I loved doing the art competitions from long ago, but they were just a whim and to amuse myself more than anything. But I think that kind of interatcivity to create some sort of huge thing that could not otherwise exist would be amazing and something to be proud to be a part of.
And hey, it might increase my views :P
OH! also! Also Perez Hilton! of all people. I realised how he just does what he does. He is who he is. And it works. I have been trying for the last year to figure out what I am 'supposed' to do with youtube and there is no 'supposed to'. I just need to channel my inner Perez (ew) and do whatever the fuck I feel like. Talk about what I want to talk about, about the stuff I like and the stuff I hate, regardless of how I think it might look. I just gotta be myself!! *cue cheesy titles and anti-drugs message*