So, I don't talk about it or write about much because it's not really a big deal to me, but I guess I am inbetween being an atheist and an agnostic. I think theist religion is outmoded and has little to no place in modern life.
I think it used to be a useful tool of government, giving people a set of laws, explanation for phenomenas, putting certain (male) people in power and such back in the day, but now that we have elected government and science, it is little more than dogma.
I was raised in a totally unreligious household. My mum was/is a scientist, my dad a (somewhat anti-religious) teacher. I went to church on every second sunday of the month when I was in the Brownies, which was some arrangement that my Brown Owl had made with the Church near my house, because we borrowed their church hall, and my mum being a stickler for the rules (and probably enjoying a Bryony-free Sunday morning) made me go. I hated it because it was boring and lame. I did like singing the hymns.
But as for my home life, and aside from those Sundays, I was not religious. I had a book of Old Testament Bible stories a religious family friend had given me which I actually loved because it was like fairy stories. They are the same in my mind as fairy stories though. Full of magic and nonsequiters and nonsense.
I stopped 'believing' in god or the bible etc the same time I stopped believing in Santa. Which was when I realised our chimney, and the chimneys of many other people, were too small for him to fit down. I also started thinking it was sort of weird that people believe that a bunch of guys talked to god and wrote down what he said, and they accepted that as 'the word of god'. Why did he talk to them in particular? What made them special? Why doesn't he talk to anyone else? Do all priests get some special phone line to heaven or something? And other such questions I never was in any way convinced of the answers. (immaculate conception, zombie easter jesus, etc). I also resented the idea that Jesus supposedly died for my sins before I had any say in the matter and that I am supposed to feel bad/good/care in some way about that.
I admit that I feel a little envious of people who have faith, because it would be nice to feel like Jesus will tell you what to do when you're feeling lost, and to believe in some sort of plan for my life but I can't bring myself to see it with any seriousness. Believing what a bunch of guys who 'talked to god' and wrote some stuff in a book said. That's just stupid, yo. Aint no man gonna tell me what to do!! (I was often told about the Suffragette/feminist Movement and such when I was growing up which made me really question this male-centric church (and don't get me started on Islam). I think it made me a little anti-baby/motherhood. But that's for another post).
I don't want to offend people with my thinking most religions are stupid, but I do, I think in the same sense that religious people probably find me rather stupid for writing it off. I say 'agnostic' because I admit I don't know. But I am really erring on the side of 'its just a bunch of stories.' It seems pigheaded and belligerent to believe one thing when there isn't, and can never be, proof.
And I feel bad kind of, because some of my friends are religious or used to be, and I'm so opinionated on things that I come off as such an asshole sometimes. The truth is, I change my opinion of someone if I find out they are religious. It honestly makes me think a little less of them. I am not in the slightest bit proud of that and it is with shame that I say it, but it's true. Because to me, saying you believe in this stuff, these things written in books by random guys long ago, these 'rules' for living in an ancient land that are supposed to apply to now.... that's like saying you believe the earth is flat, and it seems so backwards that it DOES make me feel sorry for them, in quite the same way as I am sure they feel sorry for me and my disregard and uninterest in 'the truth' as they see it. I want to lift the scales from their eyes as they probably do me.
Anyway, this is all just a build up to a link I found funny.