Um, I haven't written about this because it was secret or something. I wasn't really sure what the deal was. I hate being secretive! It hurts my soul.
Anways, I was contacted a while back about this tv show that was going to be happening, in which Lily Allen was going to host a show about internet memes (or something or other). Originally they wanted me to film a question for their star guest (and maybe as one of my wacky characters!!!!*) but then they changed their mind and wanted me to be a guest on the pilot show! Which I was sort of excited about, (despite seeing Lily Allen at a music festival where she seemed to be kind of a bit rude :/) but anyways, long story short, now it's not happening cause of Lily Allen having had a miscarriage. I kind of figured it wouldn't happen once I heard that news so I wasn't too upset- I imagine a silly TV show is the least of her worries and I hope she's ok and all (they told me she's a big fan, but I don't really believe them... but if you are reading this, Lily, um, hi)
They called me the other day to say (in a quite vague way) that they didn't need me any more and that (I think) the show is being moved back, or is cancelled, or something. Anyway, I don't think they will call me back because I got a bit snippy with them when they kept changing their minds about what they wanted me to do, and calling me at work and demanding videos to be sent to them by 3 pm and such like. I really like my job and even though my boss seems pretty easy going with things like that, it's my day job, and I can't just drop everything cause some producer people can't make up their minds! /diva mode.
So yeah, this is sort of a lame post I guess, but there it is. That was something that was maybe going to happen and now looks like it's not. It has raised a lot of questions in my mind because I don't know that I like the way mainstream media seems to look at my youtube stuff like I am some sort of performer desperate to leap onto TV, and will do anything for that shot at fame. I am really happy to be considered for anything like that, and that people think I have some modicum that could possibly translate in some way, but I feel quite pressured over it as it is not something I ever really for one moment before considered was a path my life might take. I don't feel like I could live up to the challenge of being funny on demand, being funny for a living.
Well, anyway, sorry this is kind of vague. There are other things that I am talking to different people about right now, and what with youtube being lame as usual lately, who knows where things will go.
*I am not a clown.