I guess I have probably seemed angry. Maybe I have been. I certainly let myself a lot looser on this blog than in videos, and on youtube lately I have felt really unsure of what to do on it, except when things like the Mikma thing happen and I feel riled up enough to say something angry about it.
Certainly in my own life I have been tired and stressed a lot of the last 6 months or so. California was so much fun, probably one of the best things I've ever done. I wouldn't want to change it, but it made me rather at a loss since then, I think because I wanted to go back there ever since, and I have not been able to work out what I should do with myself. It has made me very frustrated with myself and my situation. I am in a position now where I could spend a lot of money and have an amazing time... or spend it and it actually being a huge mistake and a waste of time.
Should I get a visa? Should I move to America? I want to. I really want to, and I have no other plan, and not much to tie me here. But thats this huge thing and I have no idea what happens after that. I might be in the same place just 3000 miles west of here and thousands of pounds poorer. Still scratching around not sure what to do, and far away from what I know and alone.
But then, thats life isn't it?? Thats what you do. You go out into the world and see what happens next. And everyone does things on their own terms, essentially.
But its that cusp I feel I am at. To shit or get off the pot I guess. Which has made me something of an angry little girl of late.
I'm not apologizing, just I guess rationalising and thinking things out. On my blog for all the internets to see. ha!
Oh this reminded me of this song which was the theme tune for a TV show I hated. I used to be a big fan of Oasis. But I think they're fairly lame now. However I love this song.
THIS one has karaoke! hahaha, this is the version I actually listen to.
here is some version sung by someone else
oh whatever! haha leave me alone butthead!
haha at the end of the karaoke one theres a little bit of Stewie dancing around. I haven't seen Family Guy since TV links shut down. :(