Yeah so, sorry to any new readers of this blog, who may have been expecting it to not suck, but.. yeah, I feel like ass right now. So I am going to post about it on my blog!!!
I've been whingeing to my friends lately, and annoying myself with my depressive behaviour for a good few weeks now. I don't know what set it off, but yeah, of late, I have felt like a lot of ass. I think it was when I quit/got fired from that stupid job I was doing with Kwai Chi. I got an awesome job right after it though, which is way way better, so I should be all up on cloud nine now but I'm not, and things which ought to be making my crazy happy aren't really changing my default mood to anything more than 'meh'.
Everything I think of doing, I am met with 'meh'. from myself!! I think of a fun video to make but I don't have the interest or the energy to make it so. I don't care about anything enough! Bah. I have all these things I COULD do, but none of them seem that interesting to me. I am being a pain in the ass.
I guess the solution is to just do anything. I have the mantra of 'just do stuff'. which is what i know I ought to do. But i'm not. I am writing this self indulgent blog about home grumpy and low I am of late.